stories overdue

"happiness will make you wonder 'will i feel ok?'
it scares the disenchanted far away..." -the smashing pumpkins

thankfully, i am not disenchanted. things are almost too good to be true. but i believe it. not so much because i deserve it (we are not entitled to anything after all), but because, yes, as mark said, "god allowed you to have it". so thanks God! i am enjoying myself immensely, going through a lot of new things - work and dating. it's so weird because i'm trying to keep silent about it because i don't want to jinx it, i don't want anything to be pre-empted. so when i see you all again, maybe then i can rave about how life is good (and not just at san fran).

occasionally, however, i can still relate to those lines from the pumpkins (see above). especially when i hear that though both skipp and i are in transition, our experiences are still very different. makes me think that i should be bracing myself for what's ahead.

but i'm enjoying myself too much. i'm glad you guys are here with me.